In truth

In truth the past means nothing, it can only dictate what the present means and how true this present is. If your past haunts you, let it go, move into the now, it is because of what you have done and who you have been that you are where you are right now and the best thing to do is be grateful for this moment. This moment can bring you happiness if you so choose it, it is the only thing that is true, the past does not equal the future nor the present.
In my past, beauty was in me, around me, I lived with beauty for sometime, and I was beauty. Maybe those who were so closely around me were wonderful because I felt wonderful, I was wonderful, because I felt loved by myself and I was love. The truth is we hold so much power within us but yet we are distracted by technology, by temptation, by greed, jealousy, and power, we have been made to believe that without chasing those things we are nothing, that we are less, that we are out of society. I wish we could see ourselves not through a computer screen or a phone but in real life cause that is the only thing that is real.
Technology creates many more issues for us. When we text, it is never appropriate, we leave someone waiting sometimes because we're at work or driving or doing something in the real world, in reality, but yet we try and multi-task so many times and come out hurting not only ourselves but others. I do not think there is just pain in this world but a thorough complete analysis of today's world would show a large percentage of this world feeling numb when it comes to communication with someone else in person, that we have compulsive disorders especially with technology, bright lights, an addiction to certain websites (namely facebook) can be characterized as close to an addiction as a drug. The mind is missing it when we are not on the internet so now we ask for it on our phones, at our jobs, at others' houses, anywhere we can get a hit or a fix of technology we do. Yet so much of what we need to worry about as far as priorities is left behind, left behind, maybe for a long long time sometimes.
I too was one of these humans, very addictive, addictive to what I didn't need. My reality and my truth is to what is around me. I think how to best characterize how I felt at one point of my life when I felt wonderful is: satisfied, succeeding, abundant, present, happy, confident, faithful, and gradually falling in love. I think I achieved all of this and so much more by overcoming what was a another, entirely different phase of my life. Pushing against heavy weight helped me get through, I felt burden-less, I slowly started seeing what really matters in life, I began adapting to the reality of this world. As happy and joyful as I was, I was satisfied with maybe one to two hours of technology, T.V. was almost non-existent, sharing and communicating in person with friends was a main, main priority, and sharing time with the person who was most important to me, this was almost all I needed, I wanted much more from life as everyone should but at the time satisfaction and abundance existed. However, I would not set myself free from many others addictions or ugliness from this world: I ate animal products, I didn't exercise, I didn't drink enough water or fruits and veggies, but I need to realize and face of all this in order to move into a new realm for me. When people move out usually they go through what they need and don't need, I am taking only what I need from my previous lives, only the good, the bad, the bad is being faced and challenged so that I do not fear it.