Ender

I am about to finish paying off all my credit card debt. Soon after that I will no longer use my credit cards, maybe ever. Paying off this debt will put an end and close a phase and chapter of my life that obviously still lingers. Money, at the time I was using my credit cards, was more important to me than say what I could do without worrying about money like travel the world. We put this obstacle, this consistent, never ending, and never changing obstacle in front of us. It's like we can't move, we can't decide, we can't change our lives unless we have financial security! Fuck that shit! I need my own security meaning my confidence, my trust, my faith, that above all else money does not stand in the way of me deciding and changing my life. Jobs, for me, are very conclusive, everyone is there for the same reason: $$$ not always for the experience, not for learning, REALLY learning. I would much rather use a job than a job use me, so if I can easily get a job and get money that's what I'm in it for. The money I make can help me get to my next journey. I have come to a balance in my life that money will always be there, it's abundant, IT REALLY IS EVERYWHERE, you can't go broke especially if there is money all around the world, so with that being said, money will be there, experiences come and go, it's what you make of it, it's not what you go through, it's who you become that really matters out of a job. Many people go through life hating their jobs, they go onto another job, they hate it, sure they love the money but what the fuck is the money worth when at least 8 hours a day they're miserable?! Hookers at least can make the money quick and leave, they might really have horrible emotions and self-esteem but they're, no pun intended, they're in and out and can do it all quick, so how close to whores are we all? Pretty close considering we do it for the money and care not about how we feel cause the green keeps coming in. Ending my credit card debt puts to rest an old phase of mine, an old life I lived, one that will never come back hopefully. It is time to end bad parts of me, put them to rest forever.